...a bag of pickled wrens feet to the first person who can match the title to a bad 90s dance/acid record.

I'm diabetic. And can I just say, sometimes its a right pain in the arse. And finger. And thigh. And stomach.

I realise that compared to other conditions it may seem to pale into insignificance, but nonetheless, sometimes it can feel so debilitating (second time Ive used that word) and makes me feel such an invalid.

Not being able to just go anywhere or do anything without thinking 'do I need to take food', 'should I do an injection', 'oh no, Im feeling low, gotta eat'. And so on.

I do feel jealous of others who can just get up and go to work, or go anywhere, without having to first do an injection, eat the right amount of food, work out whether you need to take extra. For instance, just going for a walk round town. Because its 'exertion' and using up more energy than just sitting down, I can end up having to stop half way to get some lucozade or something. Its really difficult to just 'go with the flow' without having to check youre alright, or suddenly have a hypo and stop.

Recently, and today in particular, its been terrible. I had to switch insulin a few months ago and Ive not been right since. Im off work again today, and its really frustrating - worrying too that Ive had a fair few days off because of it.

Oh, I dont know, it can be so deflating at times. I mean, how sad is it that I get jealous of people because if they dont want to eat dinner at 12, they can miss it. Or if theyre not particularly hungry, can just have something else. Or the worse one - knowing that no matter how little or much they eat, their body will just level out the blood sugars and sort everything out. If I have one digestive too many at night, Im awake all through it pissing like a racehorse.

I just envy not being able to get up and go. If the mood took - to just go for a swim or long walk or stay out from afternoon through to evening. Without having to think, 'no, I have to get back first to eat, need some tea, cant go straight out' etc.

So Im off work again today, feeling slightly annoyed, very high (not in a drug sense) and very peed off that the doctors and diabetic clinic seem to be as elusive as the scarlet pimpernel.

Id just like to be normal.